The End of The Week and Happier Events

 

Hello Everyone,

Welcome to my first entry of the week. I`ve been feeling really down all week with one thing and another. I`ve made a few mistakes at work, nothing major but enough to dent my confidence and as I`m getting to the end of my three month probationary period I`m seriously wonder if they`ll want to keep me on.  I don`t know...  I DO tend to suffer from paranoia (?) occasionally and maybe this is one of those occasions, I`ll have to wait and see what happens on Jan 2nd, the day the probation ends.  I do feel much better today though so hopefully it IS me and they aren`t really out to get me after all...lol!  It`s strange really, I`ve suffered bouts of this since I was really young but it hasn`t troubled me for a while. I mustn`t complain though, there are many, many people much worse off than me and the stories I`ve heard from customers has proven that, some of them make me want to cry.

Anyway, enough of my misery.  I`ve managed to get most of the presents wrapped on Wednesday and the rest of the Christmas cards in the post.  I still have the odd gift to wrap and card to send but I`m almost done thank goodness.  I`ve had enough of kneeling on the floor, cutting paper and trying to find the end on the sellotape to last me until next year, mind you they`ll be many birthdays before then...lol! Roman still doesn`t like going to bed  but that`s a shame because he has to, he`s finding out this is one Nanna who won`t be messed around, no way, no how...lol! In the day he is still as sunny and sweet as always, he never stops laughing just lately and is a bit of a show off, just like his mother at his age.  Perhaps he`ll follow her footsteps onto the stage though I know she doesn`t want that for him, it`s university or nothing for him...he`s got parents and grandparents to support...lol!  I was thinking this evening, that of all the things that make me happy, nice clothes, make-up, spending money I don`t have ( I wish!), that the most important things in life are definitely free.  Roman reaching up to me for a cuddle, or leaning forward to give me a big wet kiss have to be just two of the nicest things in my life at the moment.  I wrap the happiness they give around  me like a warm cloak. That must be the same for everyone with much loved children and grandchildren.  Also I have to admit that as deeply as I have always loved my own children, I never had time as a young Mother to savour the precious moments as much as I`d have liked.  Now as a grandmother I have that time and I intend to enjoy every moment I am given with Roman and any other grandchild I might be lucky enough to have.

         

I forgot to mention that we had our works Christmas dinner at a nearby pub restaurant, and very nice it was too.  It was a really nice evening and the food was lovely. After the traditional turkey main meal we had something called a strawberry swan.  It was a kind of strawberry mousse with meringue, cream and icecream, topped with a white chocolate swan.  It was absolutely delicious but a bit rich,  luckily it wasn`t too big a portion so I managed to eat the lot!  Jim came and picked me up and 10.30 and I was tucked up in bed by 11.15 and slept like the proverbial baby.  I heard this morning that the pub`s cat was hit by a car last night just as some of my colleagues were leaving and had to be taken to an emergency vet.  Unfortunately nobody knows what happened after that, I do hope he`ll be alright.

Anyway, I must go now, I DO have journals to read but I doubt I`ll be able to read them all tonight.  I`ll have to start afresh with them tomorrow afternoon if I have time (we`re babysitting Roman in the afternoon again!).  Until my next entry, which hopefully will be in the week, take care and have a lovely weekend.