Feelin`Good About me

It`s been really warm here today, a bit cloudy at times but as long as it`s warm I don`t mind one bit.  Kerry and I took Roman to the little park nearby, there are only a few swings and a small seesaw that are suitable for little ones but he enjoyed it all the same.  I think the other two ladies there with their children thought Kerry and I were quite mad as we played on the seesaw as if we were children ourselves, no matter though because we made Roman laugh at our antics!

            

Now to a more serious topic, at least from my point of view.  Yesterday`s outing to Teddies with Roman was a very big event for me because I woke up in the morning with an anxiety attack and was going to tell Kerry that I couldn`t take Roman.  I have been having them for years but have been fine for the last few years with nothing more than a few nerves here and there.  Yesterday morning was horrible though,  my stomach was churning and my head was `fuzzy`, my hands were trembling and it threatened to overwhelm me.  But then I thought, NO, I can`t let him down and it`s all about Roman and not me!  I gave myself a very stern talking to and focused on the job in hand.  My family have no idea that I get these attacks, Jim has seen me years ago when I collapsed once because I couldn`t breathe, but he doesn`t know I still have them even though not as bad as that time. I was extra careful while I was driving because I was carrying a very precious cargo.  The point I`m trying to make here is that my coping mechanism worked really well for me.  I ordered myself to be calm because of Roman and for once I listened.  Now I know what to do in future, if and when anxiety strikes.  This is another way that Roman has changed my life for the better.  Thank you my darling Little Man!

              

I`ve been watching more tennis from Wimbledon today, I watched Tim Henham lose to a brilliant Roger Federer in three straight sets and this morning I saw Amelie Mauresmo beat Ivana Abramovitch, 6-0 6-0.  I hope the weather stays good for the rest of the tournament.  Tonight there`s no football and poor Jim doesn`t know what to do with himself ( What a shame...lol!)   Now he knows what I`ve felt like these last few weeks, not being able to watch TV at all.  He bought me a book today, it`s called Marley and Me and it`s by John Grogan. It had a brilliant write up in the Sunday paper and is selling like hot cakes.  It`s a true story about a labrador called of course, Marley.  The author is an American so I`m sure it has been published first in the States if any of you are interested.  Under the title are the words that sum up what the book is all about, they are : life and love with the world`s worst dog.  That says it all for me, I`m going to start reading it tonight and I`ll let you know how I`m getting on with it.

              

I`m going to say Goodbye now and get on with reading all the journals.  I did manage to read and comment on most of them last night, despite thinking I wouldn`t have the time.  I hope you`ve all had a really good day, take care and enjoy your football-less evening. :o)