Mind in a Jumble!

Hello I`m back all confused as usual.  My thoughts lately are all about Hannah and today really is no exception.  The thing is though, today it seems almost as there is nothing wrong with her.  Regardless as to what the vet has told us, ie. cancers back, not long left etc.  I`m not at all sure that hes right.    Maybe I am in denial, of course, but she`s so well.  Apart from eating very little shes very perky and cheery.  Not like a dog with her `problem` at all.  I have this deep feeling inside that all is not as it seems, of course I`m not the slightest bit qualified to really know, its just that I know my dog better than anyone else, veternary profession included.   Well, to settle matters for me I had a phone call from the vets surgery today to say that Hannahs specialist has asked to see her, free of charge too.!  So maybe that way I can really know one way or the other.    I think perhaps my problem with the matter is that no tests were done as we were told the outward signs were obvious, well not to me , so maybe after next Wednesday I will know for sure and adjust my feelings accordingly.  I`m such a worrier that I find it hard to accept anything at face value, I have to have facts.........Sorry as all seems so gloomy, but I`m trying my best to be brighter.  I should be grateful Hannahs still with us at all after the year she has had, and I feel very low sometimes on her behalf..